Stream of Conciousness

So cute and fine walking like there ain’t no time to think about what tomorrow will bring or what yesterday has caused from the tips of her toes through the slips of her sandals slowly crawling up her legs and the line of her body up to her tight waist with her bag swinging from her shoulder and her feminine hands holding her phone wondering who she is texting or who she is with her beautiful lips smiling grinning and saying words I assume that she is writing on her phone and big round shades creating that mysterious visual effect that stuns me on my tracks as soon as she stopped walking and the breeze blew her auburn brown hair curled and waved while she suddenly looks in front of her as she stares across the distance…….
I wonder because her poise just stopped my train of thoughts….
She has left this vision into my brain wondering when I will see that person again…

Shoulders are slowly getting there. Just a few more and I will get the cut I want…Just…a…few…more….

Shoulders are slowly getting there. Just a few more and I will get the cut I want…Just…a…few…more….

21 Years Later

Damn I’m 24. Reminded that it’s been exactly 21 years ago when I almost lost my life. That I was in a life and death situation. 

A normal kid just enjoying my everyday cartoons and to one day began getting lightheaded and dizzy. I then threw up and can’t eat with a huge headache and then followed by a high fever. Rushed to the hospital to find out I was in a critical condition. Went to the emergency room, got x-ray done to have my parents realize I got a certain fluid in the part of my brain or skull that wasn’t suppose to be there. 

It affected me that I began to become blind. Apparently my situation was somewhat difficult to cure since it was already in the critical stage and the next stage would probably mean death. I was rushed into the operating room and had the doctor who saved me prepare a surgery that apparently would be risky but it was the only way in the time due to my condition. 

I was told that mom and dad were afraid that I would die that morning. Thank You to doctor Robles, a doctor whom I would be visiting sometime soon, I was saved and was able to grow up. A VP shunt was placed in me, from the scar on the zone that was infected on my head, going through my neck, and into my stomach, I was saved. I can still recall, I woke up from the surgery, head down, weak, and mom was crying while holding my hand. I could also remember that I was too weak to get up and I asked mom where dad was. She then called my dad, but then she had to go to talk to the doctor, and I asked dad to get mom and back and forth until I fell asleep again. That was the only thing I remember regarding the incident. 

Every year I visit the Philippines, I would see him, he would touch my shunt and make sure everything is in place and proper. It’s been years since I last saw him, he informed me that I would have a problem in my growth. Due to the tube being connected to my stomach, I am now prone to any deadly live bacteria that would have the chance to enter my body especially if they find their way to my stomach. Since they can go in the tube from there and once again affect my brain. 

21 Years ago, I would’ve died. My sister probably wouldn’t have had an older brother. My parents wouldn’t have had a son. God gave me a second chance to live and until this day He still proves to me that He watches over me through the friends he introduces in my life. That He knows they will have a good impact in me. God loves me. I will treasure all the blessings He has brought into my life, yes the Family who continues to love me. Taught me how to never give up in the worst situations and to have hope He provided me with the friends who in my worst times never judged me or left me. When I was stubborn and unbearable, they were more stubborn to remind me they will never let me leave and they wont leave my side.

21 years later, I am reminded on how I would have died but instead lived. I was given this life, so whenever I am given a blessing, money, knowledge, or even a smile and positive attitude; I share it. 
I was given the gift of life, a second chance, so I want to share my blessings whenever I can. 

This is my story 21 years ago and this is me now 21 years later.



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