Now I know all this time you’ve been doing what you didn’t want me doing.
Opens up more questions about “what else don’t i know?”
Kidney bullshit I gotta go thru. No drinking, no protein shake, no soda. I can only drink water and a lot of it.
Low blood pressure which are results from Saturday night that terrified my family and myself. You really don’t know the true reality of the end till it begins crawling from your chest and expands from there.10 minutes of fear was all I needed that I can still feel in this very moment.
Three strikes in less than 24 hours, i wonder what else is coming.
Maybe this is the perfect time to stop caring. And tell myself, whatever other people do behind my back, whatever happens to me internally. Fuck It Shit Happens and Life Goes On.
Emo Post. I just wanna rest.
A father who cares more about his children’s happiness than his. How his children being happy is his own joy. No matter what his children choose, he will be their support. Even if the choices aren’t what the father realy wants, as long as he sees a smile on his daughter’s and son’s face, it makes him happy. If they make a mistake, he will be there to talk. He will never leave their side.
A father who I look up to. My dad.
A random post based on our laughter as father and son as we reminisced about what happened in my past especially summer. When he was worried about me. We laughed about it and to hear him say (translated) “as long as that is what you want. Just remember your mom and I will always be here for you with whatever decision you choose. As long as we are alive, remember you can always rely on us.”
I want to one day turn into a loving father to his children. Just like my daddio
Some people aren’t just mentally, socially, and sometimes maturely ready to be with you. In life, you can’t keep waiting for them to be ready, either they step up and move to be with you or they are just stuck in their own world to realize they are losing you. It’s okay to be selfish, it’s okay to wait, but if the person just enjoys what he or she is doing with whoever they’re with, how can you be sure that they will even try to be with you.
To walk with you, to be by your side. I am not talking about marriage, but in friendship as well. Certain people will always say they will be there for you because they are your friends, but in reality, living for others, to help others, is what it means to move on. To not think about yourself, but to think of the other’s well being is what it means to mature as you move forward.
I realized, my shepherd was right. I was never this determined before, never felt this pressure from anyone. My parents have moved on, they have matured and now as I slowly help them out I began to realize the pain and sacrifices my parents went through. It’s time for me to step up even more. Someone very special to me has began moving forward, as happy as I am, I can’t just stay here in the same spot. I need to persevere and strive even harder.
I have left people who forgot their foundations, I will not turn into them. Everyday, I know who I care about, I observe and can see they are moving forward, so must I. Strive. I will not give in, I will push.
Keep moving forward, I will be by your side, when you need me I will be there.